I'm blogging pool-side

You know it's bad when you don't even want to eat. Especially if it's me. Usually I eat all the time!! Even when I'm bored! But I just can't bring myself to do it. I'm not hungery I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want people to even touch me. It's slightly depressing.
"sometimes we need to stop analizing the past and start planning the future, stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel, stop deciding with our mind how we want our heart to feel ,somwtimes we just have to go with...'whatever happens, happens'"
-quoted by someone who has way to much time on their hands (not me)

Things Im Scared Of:

When I was little I would tell everyone that I had no fears. I believed it too, just because I wasnt afraid of the generic responses such as snakes, spiders or the dark. As I get older I realize just how wrong I was. In fact there are a great many things I am terrified of. Since I just happen to love lists and procrastinating on my book project due on the 13th:
Things I am Scared of:

• Boys-do I even have to explain this one? I mean come on ladies you know where Im coming from. Their so confusing and never stop annoying us. They don't take hints and most of them are total assholes. Things I don't understand often scare me.
• Limited Time-I hate time limits. Can you imagine if there was a time limit for using the bathroom, being in a changing room, or sitting at a restaurant table. If you think there isn't your crazy, just think about it. People give you funny looks, employees ask you if you need help, exct. Homework has time limits, maybe I don't want to do your stupid math paper, maybe I have a life??
• Cheese Graters- so you get down to the last bit of cheese and you end up grating your finger. Sounds pretty scary to me.
• Getting Fat-there is nothing scarier than not being able to fit into your favorite pair of jeans. Plus I cant say I don't enjoy being perceived as attractive.
• Commitment-I don't want to be responsible for you and your shit. Come on that's a big decision.
• Toasters-Ok I'm having a fine morning and making toast. I reach in to get my toast and my stupid toaster just bites me (and by bite I mean burn)
• Sleep Texting-how many times have you said things you totally didn't mean to someone you were texting late at night? I know I'm guilty.
• Silence-I'm not gonna lie it freaks me out.
• Letting go-Once I'm latched on, I'm there for the ride.
• Rules-your always concerned about if your breaking them or not. You waste so much time worrying what will happen if you do actually break them.
• Parents-trusting someone else to make decisions for you? And you dont even get to choose them! dont kid yourself they totally control you and what you do for the first 18 years of you life.
• Small Spaces-im claustrophobic
• No Escape/Death Ground-Sun Tzu the anchient chinese general once said "put your troops on death ground ans they will not fail" death ground is fighting somewhere where there is not escape, the only option given is fight or die. Well that may be true but its pretty scary. I dont like not being in control of the events taking place around me.
• Love-fear the unknown.
• Loud Noises-When mixed with silence can become extremely annoying and induce paranoia.
• My Mother-if you only knew.
• Not Succeeding-pretty scary to think that your life could end up being crap.
• Trusting People-you can try...but once youve been 'betrayed' a certain amout of times, somthing just clicks off permenently in your brain and trust is just no longer an option. Trust no one.
• Being Stupid-Its no fun, trust me I know.
• Being ugly/Not wanted/Forever alone-Thats just depressing.
• The Future-If things are this crappy now I cant imagine how they will be then. Again, fear the unknown.

Well I'm finally done, I hope you have learned somthing about my sad existance.LOL ;)

and just like that..its gone

"love is when you are more concerned with the well being, safety and happiness of someone else than your own" -Quoted by: Romeo.....or maybe Juliet
Pretty scary isn't it, love is like the drug you cant possibly say away from. It can make you the happiest person in the world, and then leaves you suddenly when you least expect it. you feel empty and used. But something about it makes you want to get right back up and continue the game. No matter how many times you tell yourself "I wont fall next time, not so hard at least" "Ill stay away for a little while" it sucks you back in, chews you up then spits you out again. Its a never ending cycle, its an addiction, you don't have a choice.

ewww and my crazy quickly changing life

i have been unbelievably busy lately with ski team practice homework and my newly acquired boyfriend. this has prevented me from posting as frequently as i would like to. i had 2 very unpleasant experience this weekend while Christmas shopping for my sister. i was in target, with my mother mind you, I'm just walking down the home improvements isle and this kid (like a yr younger than me too!!) is just blatantly checking me out. i mean come on now dude, my mom even noticed!! i have recently found that i cant go anywhere public without guys just feasting their eyes!! its repulsive!! my poor Mikey. next we went to the mall, i had to go pee. i go into the first stall and there is fricken piss all over the seat!! what the hell people!! how is that even possible?? the seat is where your butt is supposed to be!! how do you pee on the seat when sitting on it!?! didn't your mommy teach you that only guys can pee standing up?? SOOOO GROSSS!!!!

why the heck would you name you blog "Orange Marker"??

A Blog Is Named-circa...mid-last year
I remember the day well (LOL) our Guidance counselor had told us to make posters about what we want to do when we grow up. I was writing with an orange marker. At the time I was dating a boy OBSSESED with the color orange. Mind you I did not name this blog after him. I was sitting next to my bff in class, and we were discussing and important topic: Weird Band Names. Neon Trees, 30 Seconds to Mars, Boys like Girls, there are so many strange band names!! from this topic we drifted into a conversation with the guys about how they want to have their own band (don't they all). We decided that their band should be named something random. The first thing I could think of was the thing in my hand: and orange marker. From that moment forward it became our our little (not very funny) joke. So when i had to choose a name for this blog, I chose "Orange Marker". I almost named it One Fish, Two Fish, Red Fish, Blue fish. But I decided not to since the fish part reminded me of the 2 fish I have (named Venus and Serena) that have not died yet. This makes me sad because I really hate remembering to feed them. I'm going to stop now because I am rambling.

Stuff...

Does it bother you when a news anchor makes it a little to clear what political party they support? I absolutely detest this! Why do they think that we care whom they are voting for? Their job is to report the news, not tell us their opinion on the presidential candidates!

Haircuts:

it seems like everyone in our school got haircuts over the thanksgiving vacation. looking around my classes it was hard to concentrate on my work when all the boys were bald or had bowl haircuts. Some guys could pull it off, but others should just give up. A great example of this is my ex (well kinda my ex, we were unofficial) he came in with probably the worst haircut I have seen in years (or since i saw that old lady with a mullet in the natural history museum, I KID YOU NOT). Well actually I am thankful that he got this haircut, not only did it give me somthing to crack up about all day, but it made me go "what the hell did I see in him!!??" which I needed to do.

So its been a while....sorry

I am confused and oblivious

I wonder if I will get where I want to in life

I hear the piercing screams of doubts in my head

I see the person

I want to be

I am confused and oblivious

I pretend to know what I am doing

I feel unprepared and rushed

I touch the unknown future with cautious fingers of hope

I worry that I won’t make it

I cry that I will fail

I am confused and oblivious

I understand that I am young

I say ill have the time

I dream that I will do well

I hope I don’t show

I am confused and oblivious

By: Kasey Williams

(tonight's English homework)

Thanksgiving!!!

Who really cares about the buckle hats?? It's all about the FOOD!! I love thanksgiving!! My favorite holiday bu far. I mean it's a holiday completely centered on food!! What's not to like?? Happy Thanksgiving break!! Enjoy turkey and football and avoiding the weird relitives.

Guys suck

Don't you hate it when guys lead you on!! Gawd what a waste of my time dude!!
Bingo Bango peel me a mango-my awesome global studies teacher
man who farts in church, sits in his own pew-Chinese proverb

Who knew??

So i know i have already posted like 2 times today and yes, it is because i dont have a life. But i just wanted to say WOW!! I STARTED A TREND!!! So i started this blog..then my bestfriend statred her blog...and then one of my other friends read our blogs and decided to make his own!!! And so im taking this opportunity to take credit for it all!!!

Chinese Proverbs are Hilarious

He who eat to many prunes, sit on toilet many moons
-Someone With an Awesome Sense of Humor
      (not me)

11/20/11

Another thing that annoys me is when people constantly swear. Is it really necessary to add a swearword to the end of every sentence you say to get the point across? In addition, those people who will be all nice and friendly one day, and the next day they act really hostile. These people just need to make up their mind! It will save other people a lot of trouble trying to figure them out.

          I also hate those Kraft cheese slices! That is not how real cheese is supposed to look or taste. Why, oh why are these putrid pieces of cheese individually wrapped. Why does Mr. Kraft think that we want to have to unwrap our cheese every time we want a sandwich? This cheese doesn’t even deserve its own individual wrappers!

          Ugh! Don’t even get me started about people who litter when there is a trashcan three feet away! Why are these people are so lazy? Imagine what their houses must look like!

Oh how sweet

Tu tiene las llaves de mi corazon~you have the keys to my heart <3
Isn't that cute? My Spanish teacher taught it to me a couple days ago and i wanted to share it :)
so my best friend just created a blog (www.alightandunbreakable.blogspot.com) she said i inspired her (awww) so of course if your reading this obviously you have some major time on you hands and i would love if you would check out her blog, she happens to be a MUCH better writer than me and more interesting person by far. We have been best friends since we were 2. We met when i held i giant toy ladybug up to her face and asked her if she wanted to play (i was a strange child). She is not so antisocial anymore, but shes still petrified of ladybugs. I cant imagine not meeting her, and her not being my best friend. My life would be super different. I would hope that i would have a best friend, but i don't know because i am horrible at making friends (as you can see). But...yeahhhh..just wanted to thank her for being here for me when i need her :) although she never seems to need me...of the two of us..i would like to think i am the stronger one...but I'm not so sure...She is actually the inspiration of this blog "Orange Marker" Ill tell you the story sometime...

11/19/11

The sun never sets on the British Empire, because God dosent trust them in the dark ;)

Oh how i love to rant

When somebody’s shirt tag is hanging out it drives me insane! I absolutely cannot go on without going up to them and tucking it in. Another thing that bugs me is when people leave the sticky tag that says the size of the garment. Really people? Really? This automatically tells everyone around you that you are too lazy to take the extra two seconds to rip the tag off of your clothes after you buy them. And how embarrassing!! I mean now everyone knows you wear a size 6 stretch

          The next pet peeve of mine is when people answer txt messages with one word answers. I mean come on! How are you even supposed to talk to people like that? I have found that there is actually no point in talking to these people. It’s more like talking to yourself with somebody interrupting you every once in a while.

11/16/11

You know your life sucks when you have to start blogging to millions of strangers (not that i expect anyone to read this) about how much it sucks....that's a lot of suckyness. Im not looking for a pity party, just a sort of release..if you will. I plan on ranting, which i do a lot anyway but my parents get sick of hearing it. My day was really horrible today, first my alarm failed to go off, and my parents didn't notice i wasn't up for an HOUR. that gave me about 15 MINUTES to get ready, so i didn't even look half decent. also my parents have a rule that i MUST keep my cell phone downstairs at night (they don't want me txting people all night??) anyway well i forgot to put it downstairs last night and my dad FLIPPED out at me for no stinkin' reason!! Oh and he took my phone away (oh joy!! love you too daddy). so a couple of days ago some girl from one of my classes asked my if the guy i like and i are dating (because she heard me talking about him) so i said "not yet" and smiled thinking nothing of it. then she comes up to me the next day and says "Kasey i asked him and he says you guys don't have a thing at all". right about now I'm thinking ohhhh greattttt...she talked to him about it...lovelyyyyy. UGH some people just don't know how to keep their mouths SHUT.